This is my new mantra. "I just have to keep it together." As in, I just have to not loose my mind, not freak out, and not throw in the proverbial towel. Keep it together. I said this to my husband on Friday. Things are moving along. I just have to keep it together. And then Saturday, I lost my mind. I totally, completely, 100% freaked the hell out. Over what? Business. Money. The usual. But for some reason, on that day it all felt like too much. Like maybe this little company of mine could not make it. Or more accurately, I could not make it. Like maybe I had made one too many mistakes to rebound from, and the stress was so great that I couldn't take it anymore. "Throw in the towel" actually came out of my mouth. But worse than uttering those words (gasp!), I believed it. So I sobbed. And sobbed. And sobbed.
Then I called Siri Hansdotter. Who is an amazingly talented woman who makes beautiful things. And I respect her as a business woman. She screwed my head back on straight. Her advice: Sometimes things suck. And you go through it, and you keep swinging the axe. Just keep moving. Clean your studio. Clean the windows and let the sunlight it. So I did. At times like that I think it is best to take the advice that is offered to me. Because clearly, I can be my own worst enemy and I can get myself into such a state that I can not think my way out of a paper bag.
Like all the important things in life, sometimes they suck. Period. But you keep moving forward. Because, really, what is the alternative? Give up? Oh no. We can't do that. Go to bed? Well, maybe for a while. Call our friends and get back on track? Yes. Best move.
Today, I am back on track. And as an added bonus, I found out my lovely bags will be sold in two oh-so-beautiful stores. Both Souchi stores. One in Aspen and the other, Lincoln Park, Chicago. So that is a pretty big reward for "keeping it together."
Letting some sunlight in.