designer's family life

Keep it together!

This is my new mantra.  "I just have to keep it together."  As in, I just have to not loose my mind, not freak out, and not throw in the proverbial towel.  Keep it together. I said this to my husband on Friday.  Things are moving along.  I just have to keep it together.  And then Saturday, I lost my mind.  I totally, completely, 100% freaked the hell out.  Over what?  Business.  Money.  The usual.  But for some reason, on that day it all felt like too much.  Like maybe this little company of mine could not make it.  Or more accurately, I could not make it.  Like maybe I had made one too many mistakes to rebound from, and the stress was so great that I couldn't take it anymore.  "Throw in the towel" actually came out of my mouth.  But worse than uttering those words (gasp!), I believed it.  So I sobbed.  And sobbed.  And sobbed.

Then I called Siri Hansdotter.  Who is an amazingly talented woman who makes beautiful things.  And I respect her as a business woman.  She screwed my head back on straight.  Her advice:  Sometimes things suck.  And you go through it, and you keep swinging the axe.  Just keep moving.  Clean your studio.  Clean the windows and let the sunlight it.  So I did.  At times like that I think it is best to take the advice that is offered to me.  Because clearly, I can be my own worst enemy and I can get myself into such a state that I can not think my way out of a paper bag.

Like all the important things in life, sometimes they suck.  Period.  But you keep moving forward.  Because, really, what is the alternative?  Give up?  Oh no.  We can't do that.  Go to bed?  Well, maybe for a while.  Call our friends and get back on track?  Yes.  Best move.

Today, I am back on track.  And as an added bonus, I found out my lovely bags will be sold in two oh-so-beautiful stores.  Both Souchi stores.  One in Aspen and the other, Lincoln Park, Chicago.  So that is a pretty big reward for "keeping it together."

out in the air

Letting some sunlight in.

3.24.12 England

Strolling through the countryside near my Mum's house in the Cotswolds.

I love washing hanging on the line.  This was taken in a little town in Wales.  I think when I get home I will put up some washing lines in our field.  It would be a nice way to dry all the dyed fabric.

We play "would you rather" in the car which usually goes something like "would you rather eat rotten scallops or rotten clams?"  Every once in a while I try to get it on a more pleasant track - would you rather stroll through the English countryside or the California country side?  My husband says, "no question...California."  I say, "no question...English."  Hmmm...wonder where that will lead?

So...what have we been up to?  Mostly walking.  And going to really, really old pubs which you have to bend down to enter - because the doorways are so little.  Seeing the baby - which is the main reason we are here.  It is amazingly warm and sunny so we packed all wrong.  Rain coats and heavy sweaters.  But, as you can see from the photos, we don't really need any.  Next week we are going to Filkin's fabrics to look at remnants of some super beautiful woolen fabric.  I am hoping to purchase enough to make an entire line of pillow covers and hopefully some smaller patchwork throws.  At home, I have been busy making a stash of larger, plain pillows as an accompaniment to the modern rustic ones.  They look great together.  I felt the more detailed pieces needed to be balanced out.  Otherwise it feels too cramped and messy.  I will put some in the shop when I get home.

My daughter's busy work.  She has been keeping herself occupied by picking flowers from the neighbor's yards and then selling them back for 1P.  Budding young capitalist.

Off for another walk!  Enjoy your days.  xoxo