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Keep it together!

This is my new mantra.  "I just have to keep it together."  As in, I just have to not loose my mind, not freak out, and not throw in the proverbial towel.  Keep it together. I said this to my husband on Friday.  Things are moving along.  I just have to keep it together.  And then Saturday, I lost my mind.  I totally, completely, 100% freaked the hell out.  Over what?  Business.  Money.  The usual.  But for some reason, on that day it all felt like too much.  Like maybe this little company of mine could not make it.  Or more accurately, I could not make it.  Like maybe I had made one too many mistakes to rebound from, and the stress was so great that I couldn't take it anymore.  "Throw in the towel" actually came out of my mouth.  But worse than uttering those words (gasp!), I believed it.  So I sobbed.  And sobbed.  And sobbed.

Then I called Siri Hansdotter.  Who is an amazingly talented woman who makes beautiful things.  And I respect her as a business woman.  She screwed my head back on straight.  Her advice:  Sometimes things suck.  And you go through it, and you keep swinging the axe.  Just keep moving.  Clean your studio.  Clean the windows and let the sunlight it.  So I did.  At times like that I think it is best to take the advice that is offered to me.  Because clearly, I can be my own worst enemy and I can get myself into such a state that I can not think my way out of a paper bag.

Like all the important things in life, sometimes they suck.  Period.  But you keep moving forward.  Because, really, what is the alternative?  Give up?  Oh no.  We can't do that.  Go to bed?  Well, maybe for a while.  Call our friends and get back on track?  Yes.  Best move.

Today, I am back on track.  And as an added bonus, I found out my lovely bags will be sold in two oh-so-beautiful stores.  Both Souchi stores.  One in Aspen and the other, Lincoln Park, Chicago.  So that is a pretty big reward for "keeping it together."

out in the air

Letting some sunlight in.

3.8.12 New goodies in Penngrove.

20"x26" shams.

A little collection of new goodies I have been working on.  I am especially fond of the shams.  Everything has lots of hand stitching on it and, as always, everything is naturally hand dyed.  I am trying to move away from the straight blue/gray...which I have been obsessed with but now am a little weary of.  I am not sure if I will put any of these in the shop, or just amass a large pile in the hopes that I will get into one of the craft shows I have applied to.  Gulp!  Juried.  Scary.

We are off to England in a couple of weeks to spend some time with the family.  My sister is having her first baby.  So I will get to spend three weeks holding my little niece or nephew.  Yeah!!  I can't wait!  I am giddy.  My daughter is excited about the plane flight - gack - and my son and husband are excited about the pubs and the food.  Mum lives in a tiny - and I mean tiny, tiny, tiny - town in Gloucestershire and my sis lives just outside Oxford in another tiny town called Woodstock.  Both come with their own older-than-anything-we-have-in-this-country houses and pubs.  My sister's home looks like it belongs in the Shire from The Hobbit.  Really.  I kid you not.  Complete with tiny front door that you would absolutely miss if you did not know it was there.  I am hoping to visit some fabric shops.  Mum brought over some gorgeous French linen last time she visited.  So hopefully I can sneak out of the house for a while and pick up some lovely fabrics to bring home.  So...that leaves me two weeks to bust out as much stuff as I can.

Until next time...be well.  Enjoy the sun if you have it.  Or the rain.  Or your warm home.  Or...  xoxo

2.8.12 Kapital – Japanese Sashiko Fabric Tote

find out more here.

A friend sent me the link for this bag today with the subject "thought of you."  Which is a very big complement.  Thank you a million times over.  I would love to apprentice in Kapital's workshop for a day or two.

So today is the big day...the day I have been mulling over in my head for months - perhaps years would be more accurate.  It may have even been a lifetime.  Today is the day I begin to stitch together the fabric for a the Victorian Parlor chair  which has been sitting in my garage, ever so patiently, waiting for me to get my confidence together to tackle the project.  I know this will be a long process.  I am resigned to the fact that for a stretch of time I will hate my work.  I will feel incredibly uncomfortable and I will want to quit.  I am also resigned to the fact that I will keep sewing.  And eventually, I will reach the point where I look down and smile and know I have created something good.   It always works like that.  The same predictable evolution.  The difficult part is remembering that I have been there before.  Remembering that the discomfort is a natural part of my creative process.  And after getting a bolster of confidence from the Kapital tote above, I have to say, I am quite excited to begin the journey again.

xoxo